Double-edged sword

I don't think i will ever say it
But I have to apologize
I've bought the sun
and didn't check the price

It was not on purpose
It is not a payback
All the stars were fading
life was turning black

That light was vital
To keep me walking sane
Now I feel the weight
even though in vain

I know it is my fault
I should have walked away
But i was sunk in darkness
Until that shinny day

It's a double-edged sword
Don't make it easy for me
I don't want to cause you damaged
It's the happiest way to be

Yazalde

Achilles' heel for all

Looking strong
But aching
Her stomach is buzzing
Her legs are shaking

Looking through the enemy
The eyes of the past
She was left shattered
Burned from the blast

with all hopes vanished
she pities that child

her loss of innocence

Once thrilling and wild


She thinks ashamed
'Forget this filed case
I've grown stronger
After that craze'

Achilles' heel for all
No one escapes from it
Overcome the pain
Dance to the bitterness beat


Yazalde

Juice of sin

I found my secret
In a forbidden place
Left me unarmed
Gravitating in space
Squeezed apple
Juice of sin
Fought it against
Skin to skin
I was defeated
But I won instead
kept the light to my path
and his face in my head

Yazalde

the fragrance

I am in.
Is it too late?
you don't seem to care
Am I a dead- weight?
Will it change if I fight for you?
I'm waiting for the end of the lies
as far as I cant stand
the deviation of your eyes
Until then
I'll wait for the sun to rise
and for the blossoming flowers
That bring the frangrance of my own skin
Mesmerize you

Yazalde

Step aside

To resign from a post, especially when being replaced.

Insanely Unnhappy

Ruining everything
To know what I want
Tears constantly fall
as a water font
I'm drowning deeper
in my own selfish pride
I'm insanely unnhappy
You're not by my side

Yazalde

I can't and I won't

I can't and I won't
be with you
hold you tightly and kiss your hand
You can't and you won't
Try to kiss me
so I cannot let you do it
and kiss you right back
We can't and we won't
surrender to each other
for the last time
I won't see you for the last time
I can't
and certainly, I won't

Yazalde

Unprotected

The walls were broken
The ones that kept us standing
I was left frozen and unprotected
Like a fetus
Who's insatiable
Small and vulnerable
I am
Without you

Yazalde

Lost cat

"If your cat has disappeared in your dream, that may mean something close to you may be lost to you .
Whatever you are likely to lose in your life it is important to seek help from other people.
How do you feel inside about loosing something important to you?
The cat in the dream may symbolize it is time for you to give up something in your life."

Yazalde

Tornado

"To see a tornado in your dream, suggests that you are experiencing some extreme emotional outbursts and temper tantrums. Is there a situation or relationship in your life that may be potentially destructive?"




Yazalde

Fill the void

Sex does not fill the void 

You showed me today
The pain in my chest
Will not go away
Because words aren't enough
You are the proof
Don't waste more words

Neither our youth

Yazalde

Friend of mine

Intertwined
With our palms  in connection
Conveying the feelings
That were in dissection
Please,
Do not fall in love
I just couldn't stand it,
Perhaps,
Possession
Shame on me

Yazalde

Let us be

It's all about that isn't it?
Female and male
Mrs Friendship is dead
Dear Sanity you're going to fail
Seems like an awkward stalking
With no reason
While I'm walking
With your yesterday
Today
Do you know my status?
Do you even know me?
Move on darling
Let us be
even if we are just
Well, whatever

Yazalde

Drooling looking at us

I thought you knew nothing
So I looked at me
Blind is the one
who doesn't want to see

You were right
Sure, of course, indeed
Just
What i needed

I was almost missing
The sound of  the night
Where our friend is shining
All big and white

Drooling looking at us
The moon will be there
Until we fade away
Somehow, somewhere

Yazalde

Chemistry

I knew it from the beginning
Hope you keep your word
When you finally find
Your singing bird

"I'm not like the others"
You are even weaker
We were almost making
Chemistry in the beaker

I hope you get it  
It takes time to break the ice
Now, go ahead and give up
But try to make it nice

Yazalde

Like a new chewing gum

Don't be so shocked
It was simply fun
Another experience
Like a new chewing gum

Make and take
With no compromise
Just to enjoy
There was no disguise

Do not get stucked
Do not blame you
Find another player
Who wants to re-do

Yazalde

Waiting in vain

What was I still doing
Waiting here in vain?
You're not even near
I must be insane

They are working  faster
Than a cigarette machine
All the hopes were wasted
In a foolish dream

The other laughs
Another cries
Hoping that one day
I reject other guys

Welcome unknown
I'm leaving the past
With no regrets
Don't look at my ass

Yazalde

Can you hold my hand?

Boiling until dizziness comes
Mom, am I going to die?
Head and heart, side by side
Fast as a plane in the sky

Afraid of every sound
Every move looks like a threat
Let's end this unknow trip
I'm beginning to sweat

I dont know where I am
Like a grain of a desert sand
Green flowers don't help
Can you, please, hold my hand?


Yazalde

From hero to zero

Like a broken mirror
With distorted face
Fallen from the pedestal
Ended up at last place

Now I find you ugly
And small like a bug
I feel like I was stoned
Without any drug

There is no simpathy
An uninteresting talk
From hero to zero
What a weird long walk

Yazalde

When they got to go

It's hard to have the feeling
'Things change and people grow'
When their lives need to move
And then they got to go

Your head just thinks
Stay, please, don't leave
Our home got silent
It's hard to breathe

Forget it
You'll be just fine
Be strong and give strength
It's their time to shine

Miss with a smile
Go with the flow
Just a little light
Will make their path glow

Yazalde

Smiling at memories

I looked at my scrapbook
We were so young
I miss you, my friend
You have made me strong

Smiling at memories
That everyone misses
When you let me win
Your favourite kisses

Apologies for no reason
Our races in the bush
That scar I though was cute
The way you used to blush

I wonder if you remember
What we used to be
Keep being who you are
And never forget me

Yazalde

Friends as they call it

Running through my body
Happy shivers all the way
Life, it isn't sad
Like all the people say

Laughing, singing and screaming
With our perfect connection
Don't call the police
We got no correction

Laying my head down my pillow
I'm pleased you are with me
Dreaming of those moments
Writing friends on a tree

Friends as they call it
You are the key
With a smile on my face
"We" sounds beautifully

Yazalde

It's your heart that's beating

Your life is precious
Control their abuse
It's your heart that's beating
Do not let them chose

Be persistent
Fall and fall again
Deal with the flames
Like a fireman

In order to win
Learn to love the scar
Choose to pass over
as a racing car

Make your own mistakes
Chose for yourself
Do not be a puppet
It's bad for your health

Yazalde

Dear, she will get old

Forget the detail
And not the set
Prepare yourself
Get ready to sweat

Isn't it good?
Isn't she smart?
Don't be stupid
Open your heart

As well as you
She will get old
Remember that
When you get cold

Forget the numbers
Show care and respect
You're almost falling
That's love effect

Yazalde

Cheers to the coward

Poor you, so damn innocent
Lets play the pretending game
I have made this all alone
You don't even know my name

Stop darling,
Do not joke with me
Friends don't marry
Why can't you see?

What was the idea?
Undress my confusion
Don't leave the board
That is not a solution

Hope you'll regret it
You have missed one class
When you are a coward
Fast your train will pass

Yazalde

Clean your mind and get a life

You must be unhappy
It's what it seems
Deal with your problems
Leave these sad scenes

Talking behind my back
That really makes me sick
Is that an escape?
 There is no logic

Low, disgusting and sad
That's what i got to say
You're a bunch of losers
Hell is that way

Stop the trashy talk
Clean your dirty knife
Look in the mirrow
Screw you! Get a life!

Yazalde

You'll rock the world

Just to get you down

Do no let them win

Love is not a crime

Not even a sin

You're one of a kind

much better than that

You will rock the world

and they will get fat

Love whoever you want
The ones who mind don't matter
Keep fighting for the one
Who can love you better

SoSo show what you got
and what he can get
BIow up his mind
He will not forget

And if he doesn't want you
Do not even care

Because boys like him

You find everywhere

 Yazalde

Never like the movies

Hard and slow
Perhaps will never be
It's never like the movies
No hut by the sea

Be is complicated
Do is even worse
No movie scenes
Pain it's our curse

Two lost veins
Who need to act
Waiting to merge
With a silent eye contact

Yazalde

Between two Flavors

Fish or meat

Curiosity

You have killed the cat

Stay away from me

Between  two flavors

What have I done?

I've play it wrong

Please hide the gun

Fish or meat

I don't want to chose

I'm in a tightrope

Everything to lose

Choices

Life is that way

Make a step
I have to play

There's just one game
I can't repeat
There's no playback

It's fish or meat

 Yazalde

You're not my son

I want to be happy

Daddy, hear my voice

I just follow my heart

It was not a choice

Get out of my house

I am old, I am done

What a shame

You're not my son

Can i talk to you?

I've got something to say

I hope you don't mind

Father, I am gay

Yazalde